Although suffering is inevitable, Sunday’s sermon shed light on how often we suffer unnecessarily. Our stubborn will is the cause. We put something other than God in the place that he set aside for himself.
Our will goes something like this –
We worship intelligence only to end up feeling stupid.
We worship beauty only to end up feeling ugly.
We worship success only to end up feeling like a failure.
I knew before the sermon’s end what I worshipped – being a good person. It never crossed my mind (until now) that being good was anything but admirable.
The sermon put an end to my asking why I’ve felt unlovable no matter how many times I’m told “I love you.”
It put an end to my asking why I’ve felt ashamed, never mind all my attempts at being perfect.
It put an end to my asking why I’ve felt unkind even though my husband says over and over, “You’re the most caring person I know.”
How did trying to be good turn out so bad?
It’s pretty simple when I apply the sermon’s formula – I worshipped my own goodness only to end up feeling anything but good.
I put my goodness before his Godness, and nothing good comes from that.
What’s getting in the way (no matter how admirable you deem it) of your relationship with God?
WRite wHere I’m supposed to be – I’ve wanted to get out of my own way for some time now. Thank you, Iain, for the sermon. Thank you, God, for the shove.
On the side: I’m posting next about Robin Williams and suicide – a man and a topic that deserve to be talked about.